real-time case study, right?
ill-advised or not,
my filters are dissolving
been freaking out the last 24 hours -
coronavirus news,
movie release,
and moving
it’s all a bit too much for me
my brain is on the fritz
speed-bumping along
i claim to be strong and calm,
but i’m overcome…
i live in worry of the future
while telling myself to stay present:
“right this moment, i am ok. those i love are ok.”
i want to keep them that way,
to plan for the future,
while somehow not worrying.
but there are so many unknowns…
never in a million years,
could have i imagined such a world event
coinciding with our movie release
i’m both a business owner and world citizen
i want to be responsible and wise
to take the right course of action
i’m not planning a huge event or a festival
i’m not in control of whether theaters open or close
but i am in charge of
pushing, cajoling, encouraging
people to congregate together…
i have to admit that our hearts aren’t completely in it
we are still marketing,
but we are also discussing
mitigation strategies
backup plans
the situation changes daily
we won’t know anything until Monday
when numbers are released
from this weekend’s films
i thought we might sneak through
but it’s escalating day over day
last weekend’s box office was ok
imperceptibly impacted
this weekend is unclear
next weekend? (our weekend)
who’s to say…
we’ll reassess tomorrow and then on monday
do we travel to LA or not
so far, we proceed as planned
do we put others at risk?
by promoting group interaction
do our actions affect family and friends?
unnecessary travel
what a strange, fascinating and absolutely terrifying time…
every business in the world faces the same questions
and every individual thinks of family
and business and livelihood
also affect family
and what about the world’s service workers?
grocery and bank tellers
waiters
uber drivers
medical workers
can they go home?
i work from home
but have a student
in many cases
my inclination would be
to say we’re over-reacting
but the extent to which
countries are reacting
in unison and solidarity
makes this a time
to join not rebuke
the shape that takes is unknown
but wow how the world has taken on one consciousness
to actually witness it…
talk about a once in a lifetime event…
wishing you health, safety,
and some modicum of equanimity -
if you have any to spare,
blow it in a kiss my way
♡ Annie
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